As I write, a vast clump of anti-welcomes forms before my eyes, like a scrap metal tower teetering up into the sky. I tilt my neck, but I cannot see the top.
It sounds like an exaggeration – I wish it was. The truth is that the current neurological hegemony practices daily micro-aggressions in which autistic people are not welcomed. They’re also barred from giving in the mainstream of life.
Some of us experience just enough welcome (important to acknowledge a relative privilege) and gain the tools with which to carve a niche. But too many don’t. Every human needs a baseline of welcome, and access to the power of giving.
I’m tempted to leave this video right here without any words. Who needs words when embodiment is so infinitely more expressive? It’s at such moments that I remind myself that words can only translate experience. Yet the need to translate is there. Even for myself. I need to process what this powerful embodiment means. Writing helps.Continue reading “Performance 1. Performance as autistic embodiment and research.”
My last post was about waiting for Arts Council England (ACE) to make a decision on my project. Funding from public money in the arts is limited and brings a great responsibility to the recipient. So I feel incredibly fortunate to have been awarded funding under the Grants for the Arts scheme, and will give myContinue reading “Making it through.”
My process of application to Art Council England (ACE) is coming to a close and I will be documenting it in the final two weeks. Even though it is statistically more probable that I won’t be successful I want the decision to be visible. I have some serious questions about the process, having gone throughContinue reading “Waiting for an Arts Council decision”
A new exploration of the selfie via Instagram and my new app Layout, which allows me to do some layering of images. I’m taking a ride on the hashtag #womentakingselfies and enjoying thinking about how women of my age are supposed to be invisible. My first few attempts had me looking away from the lens,Continue reading “Selfie Time. #womentakingselfies”
Here is a short (less than 2 minutes) video with my take on the backbone to my creative practice; the concept of postmemory. First developed to describe the transmitted trauma to the children of holocaust survivors, this term is incredibly meaningful in anchoring my own experience of living with my father’s traumatic lifelong exile fromContinue reading “What is postmemory?”