(It’s now May 11th and my ears are still ringing.)
Tinnitus. My head wide open. Eyes far apart. That spaced out feeling.
I am floating somewhere in the in-between.
Sound is shape shifting. I’m nostalgic for that day when tiredness formed an echo so that every voice warped into unearthly forms, magically transformed into nonsense. I was 10.
Blaaaah blAAAH Blaaaah blAAAH Blaaaah….
It never happened again.
5 days of ringing in my ears. Is this a new thing?
It’s not unpleasant. I feel otherworldly. Disconnected.
No one else can hear this.
When I tune in my eyes drift to the windows.
In a meeting it is pleasant.
At home it is an exercise in levitation.
I tune in and tune out.
I wait. Not knowing if this will stop.